Kicked Out

What is LOVE, was this not suppose to be unconditional, i remember learning love from your famliy will never fade-so what the fuck happened to mine! its sad really, not all families are close, some are like strangers.

I was turned out into the cold on 11 pm October 11,2009, a cry for help turned into a scream of frustration, anger and pain oh i cannot describe this pain, it hurts me so much i thought i would die, i curled on the cold grass in wolverhampton and cried to my friend on the phone, words could not escape my lips what did i do to deserve such a fate, was this the way my life is suppuse to be -familyless- for four nights i went back and forth trying to get help from the goverment and non was given to me cause i worked a part time job and i was not on benifits "well i'm sorry there is nothing we can do" i kept getting the same words no matter where i went, i decided i should try birmingham a bigger city with different rules after trying for a day i finally got my answer, it was a nieghborhood office in Lozels, they helped me really quickly i was so greatfull for someone just to listen by midday on thursday they had me in a hostel- i could rest.

I had to give up my jobs in wolverhampton due to the fact it was just too far and it seemed birmingham had more hope for me than wolverhampton, maybe this is a blessing in disguse-maybe.

I wont lie i am afread of what the future holds for me i have been in this sitution before, however never felt afread cause i was on home land, this country is still new to me with lots of ugly as well as bueaty.

My friends have always been my family, i was told this is so because unlike my family i can choose my friends