Abena, a proud black woman I presume asked a question I rarely think about if at all "what being a lesbian has meant for you as a Black woman".

I created a YouTube channel and dubbed the title 'Life of a black lesbian stud (UK)', I was inspired by the title from another YouTube user whom had the same name except the 'stud' and the 'UK'. I cannot say I have ever felt connected to the title as my aim was simply to allow others into my world, it meant more to me that I was a black Jamaican in a predominately white country, I was more concerned with what it meant to be just black and what difficulties I would encounter.

In Jamaica I have seen how women are seen as sex objects and treated with little or no respect, to not entertain their strong advances is to be coined as a lesbian, to be called a gay man was even worst, this was downright nasty and unnatural, against the teachings of the bible, a one way ticket to hell.

Women were raped mainly because they were seen as being weak, being a lesbian was just another reason for them to do it, men received the worst treatment in my opinion, some were stoned at the feet of policemen, some burned to death and some had their family pay for the rumors-yes rumors for they were not always true- all in the name of being a homosexual, this is what I grew up seeing, women having to hold their ground and gay men being mistreated and killed.

I cannot tell you what it means to be a lesbian black woman for I have never walked the curve, I have only stood at my window and watch helplessly at others fighting off men or carrying scars of being raped.

Being a 'lesbian' black woman is like having a degree in the 21st century, common and makes little or no difference. What sets you apart is your sheer determination to overcome the color spectrum, the gender differce and paint your skin with your soul and be an 'Individual'

Out on the internet but not in life

Every day you come across another person form the LGTB community on the internet struggling to come out to persons at home or school or just random friends, it begs to question how would they feel if some found their videos or blogs, or happened to see the information circulation around school-just how devastated would one be?


I have never been the type to come out to anyone, never thought it was anyone's business. I came to England and quickly found that documenting my life on the internet helped me to have a bird's eye view of life, seeing and hearing comments from others who may feel the same encouraged me to continue...I guess it’s safe to say it’s a cheap form of therapy LOL!!

Lesbian...hmmm, I never identified with, I would always tell persons I’m straight-straight girls, or I would simply say I like girls, never stepping into the L-word saga, it is not until but a few months ago am I accepting the term 'trans' for I would have just rather 'Man', however the medical world and society forces me in a way to conform to a label by identifying myself simple saying I am a man raises eyebrows and drop jaws. For some they barely flinch at the sound of hearing the word transsexual.

The point is I like sharing my story in hopes of getting through to someone who is struggling, yearning to meet someone who will listen and not only say I understand, but I feel your pain, I hope by being out on the internet I am out in the world making a difference.